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“Almost as if it’s egging me on, a burning expands inside my chest. I will it to grow. I feed it my hate. I feed it my anger. I feed it all the pain I have endured. It’s so warm inside. It warms my dead heart and brings it back to life. I relish in the rage. I urge it forward and coax it closer to the surface. I feel a cruel and malicious …smile etch its way across my face. I think I laugh but I can’t be certain. I no longer hear the outside world. All my ears hear is the roar of the fire building in my body. It seems to take control of me. I welcome it. Again, I urge it closer and closer. Let it consume me. Let it burn everything down in its rage.”